Emily Brewer Central

Day 21

Wow. I have discovered it is super easy to stay on a diet when you are rocking the scale and dropping some serious lbs.  But what about when you stall? Or worse yet, when you GAIN weight after you have been diligent to a fault and faithful to a T to your diet menu?  And you are starving and miserable. Yeah, that sucks!

Motivation has been tough for me this past week.  I have been kind of quiet on the diet journal as I had an extended plateau, a big drop, then a gain then a slow drop again and all with no cheating.  This diet roller coaster has been frustrating and challenging and yes, disappointing at times.  Especially given that I have not deviated from the program in the least.  A gain?!  What the heck!

It forced me to look at how hard it is to remain motivated and on track with something when the results aren’t ideal even though logic tells me eventually things will start moving in the right direction again at some point.  Then you make a decision: to cheat or not to cheat. I will tell you the desire for a glass on wine was so strong in me last night it was almost aggressive!  I held off the craving had a cup of sleepytime tea and hit the hay instead.  Hungry, as always.

I started this diet because of my leg injury and my inability to exercise as much as I wish I could.  I do feel successful about the 12 lb loss I have accomplished to date and am hoping I can find a way to successfully maintain that weight when I switch to a less restrictive maintenance type diet mid-week next week.  Please pray for me that I do not go bonkers the second I get off the restrictive diet and get a bucket of KFC!  I am hoping for a more sane and measured transition that allows me to stay in control of my cravings and hunger and keep this weight off until the leg fully heals.

Here goes nothing!