Emily Brewer Central

Day 6

I am starting day 6 of my low calorie diet today. Days 4/5 were a test of my will for sure.  As my body is having to get used to the absence of the abundance of calories and look to the limited amounts coming in a burn the excess from the past 6 months it is fighting back a bit. I can’t say I blame it, I just wish it was fighting so hard.  No more sleep disruption after the horrid ‘refried bean dream’ night. So that is definitely a step up.  Yesterday I was still hungry but I seemed to have it under tighter control.

The dreams are funny though.  Last night I dreamt I ate something, I can’t remember what it was but I remember it was pretty small and insignificant – but it was OFF my diet protocol! The horror! I kept thinking after I dream-ate that small bite WHY did you do that?!? It was so small! Not even worth it!  So it looks like the dieting food dreams are likely here to stay for a while.  That’s ok, as long as I am only eating in my dreams I am pretty sure it can’t hurt me. I went to sleep around 8:30 PM on Day 4, no joke. I was just so tired and exhausted from battling food all day I was just tired.  Last night I made it until almost 1 AM.  It was Friday after all. No wild partying or anything, just ginger tea (thanks Olivia!) and finishing my trashy crotch novel.

As I start day 6 two things are top of mind. First and foremost only 20 days to go before I can ditch this low calorie restriction to something a little more manageable.  A diet where I don’t have to recommit in a serious way every morning will be a little easier to manage psychologically.  Secondly, I am down 5.5 lbs net since I started this diet (subtracting the ups and downs) which feels pretty awesome! I know you don’t sustain the rate of initial losses but it is a nice way to start. The results make it a bit more motivating but nothing makes this easy.  The support of family and friends has been the driving factor here. Unless you have someone telling you that you can do this, every day and not to quit, it can be rough.  So I am in debt to them for that because it is work for them too! Thanks to the office mates for not eating burgers and fries in front of me and thanks to the BF for eating his amazing looking and smelling steak salad on the patio last night.  You are all such a help and support!

On to week 2 and wish me luck tomorrow – 4th of July!